Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Its been awhile

LOVE&Passion and everything that comes with it.
Im still here.

Monday, September 07, 2009

max is comming

LOVE&Passion and everything that comes with it.
crazy max is comming to dj

Monday, August 20, 2007

A wedding in the mix

LOVE&Passion and everything that comes with it.Nicole Richie is getting married-wow. I wonder what type of parent she will be is she better than Britney Spears? who will know, only time can tell. I am happy for her she is my favorite wild child. I think the baby will give her joy. Babies bring joy.

Joel Madden reportedly popped the question to Nicole Richie on Thursday, after hinting earlier in the week that he would propose. The reality star and the Good Charlotte frontman are expecting their first child together.

photo by Ronald Asadorian/Splash News - August 15, 2007
etter than Britaney wmmm, who will know.

Gangsta of Darkness-New novel

Love me

LOVE&Passion and everything that comes with it. I am ok and I am a live I promise. Please do not send the cops on me. Dont take this as a promotion to hurt your self either. I am a writer and this is how I express my self. Thanks

Have you ever been so lonley that you just want to give up. have you ever felt so angry that you felt the world is brutally beating you up. have you ever felt like you just needed love to pull you up. Love me, touch me, feel my heart beat threw the air. Oh what the hell you never really knew i was there. Its cold i am alone, and now i am on my own , its so lonely. i want you to love me. who cares-i am dead now.Yes dead, my wrists are cut and dried out from the veins. My heart is filled with more pain. Why,why couldnt you just Love me.

Suicide cronicals-exclusive writings.

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Sunday, July 01, 2007

Spicegirls Reunite

LOVE&Passion and everything that comes with it.

The Spice Girls are getting back together isnt that great. It is for me im a fan.


Dont interrupt my

LOVE&Passion and everything that comes with it.

Don’t Interrupt My Suicide July 1, 2007
(Thoughts rushing out of my heart and flowing on to an edge of a blade, I feel like the edge of a razor blade.)-LOVEDARKPASSION

I have always had feelings on how I want my ending to be. When I say my ending I mean my death. I have thought about death since I was about 4. My dog Bullet died. I didn’t understand why he died or what caused it. Then I realized he wasn’t coming back. He didn’t come back because my family put him to sleep. I woke up from a dream remembering this about my dog when I was 7. I guess when you have tons of people around you dieing you get flash backs to those little things. My father died when I was almost 7, his death triggered the memory of Bullet.
The sad thing about this is Bullet was my dog; he became ill with a worm, that’s why my mom put him to sleep. She didn’t want him to suffer, neither does or did I. I miss Bullet now and I really missed him then. My father on the other hand I never missed. I felt more sad for my dog then my own father. My father I never knew. I remember my mother making me go to the funeral. I didn’t want to attend because I didn’t know him and half of the other people there. But I didn’t get a say so .I was only 7. My dad’s funeral was packed; they didn’t have a seat for me or my mother. I remember the funeral director pulling up a cold metal chair so I could sit up front, up front where the dead body was. It rained like cats and dogs that whole week, my father couldn’t be buried that day. They waited for the next day to do it, I didn’t go at all. To this day I don’t know where my father is buried and you want to know something I don’t give a damn to know. He was never around when I was younger, just my dog Bullet. You know they always say a dog is a mans best friend, but they are wrong the dog was my best friend. And I am definitely not a man.
I often wondered if my dad would have been around more if I was boy or a horse. You know the old cliché about men and there sons. So I cant help to think. He loved horses so if I was a horse would he have stuck around? Or would he still have abandoned me. My mom put Bullet to peace because he was ill, my heart is ill I want to rest. My heart is filled with raging steam against my dad. It hurts its just like having worms. Again Bullet was hurting, he is dead. I often want to be euthanized like him. Maybe when the time is right I will execute my ending on my own terms.
I want my ending to be really peaceful. This is why I am getting the steam out of my heart. I don’t love my dad like a daughter should, why? I don’t know him how can you love something you don’t know. I love God; I haven’t seen God in a physical since, but in a spiritual since. I love my mom because the bible says so. I like my dad because God would want me to. Love him I cant, I just like.

(Don’t interrupt my suicide)-Pre thoughts
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Friday, February 09, 2007

Come In Closer - Live

Friday, February 02, 2007

Blue October Razorblade Live

I love this band and this song. so I wanted to share.Some times I feel like the intensity of the edge of a blade.
Blue October - Black Orchid

I wanted to putthis song up because I like the tone to it. I am a new fan of Blue October.A fan got me into their music. I like the tone and texture of thier music. Its so mind gagling. The lyrics and beats from this group is just so amazing. I hope they get nominated for a grammey or something. I know I just have a small website and group, but a least my fans have good taste in music.

Thursday, February 01, 2007

Red Hot Chili Peppers - Otherside

These guys are so sexy!
Red Hot Chili Peppers -- Can't Stop Live